Posted on 2006.06.15 at 04:37
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. I hate love.
Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down. I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
love don't give up on me.
Posted on 2006.04.30 at 15:38
Humeur actuelle: content
Musique actuelle: the sea and the cake "the biz"
So I got a brand new, full-time job as a cashier at Food Patch in Ferndale. I really am excited b/c it's like working at Nurti-Foods in Royal Oak, a store full of natural food, organic products and health supplements..... and Gabe is working full time stock so that will work hopefully with car pooling some days...I also get medical benefits after 6 months which is vital 'cause i'll be off my parent's insurance in september. I plan on taking only 1 or 2 classes in junction with working full time next fall.
So, come visit me at Food Patch. Off woodward and west on nine mile, south side of 9 mile, one block from woodward.
Posted on 2006.04.22 at 14:27
Humeur actuelle: busy
Musique actuelle: the yeah yeah yeahs/show your bones
Today is my "golden birthday". I'm offically 22. It's also earth day. Please recycle and reuse\e......i'm going to volunteer next saturday to plant trees along 16 mile next to the bike path....around the jefferson and crocker area..this is going to be a big event for Harrison Twp...if anyone else wants to participate leave me a message...it would be all day probably.
I plan on laying outside, walking Scout, eating a dinner made by my dad and playing a huge game of Dungeon and Dragons and Nintendo DS tonight with cool nerds.
Posted on 2006.04.02 at 11:49
Current Location: the sea
Humeur actuelle: contemplative
Musique actuelle: seagulls and waves
+ Got a nintendo DS for my birthday (which is not till the 22nd, may I add...) w/the game Animal Crossing. Freaked about it.
+ Buying those ridiculous shoes called "Heelies" or is it "Heelys" next week when I get paid.
+ School is coming along
+ Dorkwave was insane last night
+ Bought tons on new mult-colored tights and 80's dressing thifting yesterday.
+ I'm actually being consistant with working out again
+ Weather is getting nicer. Picnics and Bikerides!!
+ Gabe is awesome.
- I'm always broke. But that's expected when you live paycheck to paycheck..
-FUCKING DAYLIGHT SAVING TIME...(we lost an hour and now my biological clock is screwed up)
-Gasoline is depressing. I can't fathom how it is 2.70 now....i'm taking the SMART bus from now on.
-I think my consuming actions last night upsetted someone dear to me...and I regret it.
Posted on 2006.03.02 at 03:29
I just got home from Gabe's house....Upon leaving..I slipped on his outdoor stairs and landed on my ass...
I don't like freezing rain.
I don't like it one bit.
It makes me look like a klutz.
I'm a klutz anyways, but it adds insult to injury.
Then I parked my car outside of my house..and alas! more freezing rain mishap!!! My car skidded toward the grass/lake...it was kinda fearful..but i'm safe now..
safe to update this pointless journal entry about how much I hate freezing rain.
Posted on 2006.02.27 at 05:51
yeah it's early.
for some reason I've been waking up every hour on the hour since 2.
so I said "fuck it". Why not get up early and update the LJ?
Corinna thanks for cutting my hair last night...and thus, freeing my eyes from being blind.
Nicole it was nice seeing you too...I hope you guys like your hand me downs...
Posted on 2006.02.22 at 12:53
I'm changing the date, time and location of my previous entry advertising the bar sale thats going on.......
this is the revised invitation:
I won't be selling things tonight at the magic stick. (too much is going on today that I can't make it down there)
BUT please be advised of next weeks sale.
PLEASE COME NEXT WEEK!
Posted on 2006.02.16 at 01:06
Let it be known, I have a zombie lover. That likes to bite necks.
Posted on 2006.02.15 at 20:37
Musique actuelle: arab on radar
I hardly update in this thing anymore. I have a journal I write in daily, but your eyes will never see it.
I'm avoiding all attemps to write my 3 page paper for English (due tomorrow mind you)
Lately, I've had an unhealthy obsession with deconstructive music. (I.E.>>>Made in Mexico, Get Hustle, Lake Dracula and Arab on Radar)
With that note, Record Time (the roseville store) is having a major sale for the next 4 days....I strongly suggest you take you weekly earnings there.
Further more, I'm collecting all my vintage junk and non-vintage junk to start selling weekly at the Majestic Cafe on Wednesday nights...or at the Belmount tuesday nights if I can make it. Extra crash will feed this new music obsession I have.
Friday I get to do a photo shoot for a Detroit D.J. This is exciting. Saturday I've been invited to a couple's party in Royal Oak (is this a humble way of saying "orgy"?)
Sunday is some strange band playing at the magic stick.
Tonight Gabe is stopping by so we can watch Project Runway. This makes me gitty. If I was a designer, all my outfits would probably be something Karen O would wear...strange, random and ridiclous.
My brother Louis wants me to make him a profile for MYSPACE...my decision on that matter is still pending. I have too much love for that kid to help him commit his life into a internet vegetable...he's only 11 for fuck sake.
I'm through with this, time to take a shower.
Posted on 2006.01.18 at 09:48
Humeur actuelle: chipper
Musique actuelle: my morning jacket
Fuck Yeah! ***********It's snowing***************
Things to take advantage of today:
-snow fight with scout
-drink wine (that really doesn't "mix" with the winter merriment, but whatever)
just needs to freeze.